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Trip report From: MP3CE, 33 Years, Male
Preparations for initiation I took this Iboga trip very seriously as I have prepared myself to die for two months before actually taking Ibogaine. On day D, I did not eat anything, stopped smoking, drinking coffee, etc.. and I had taken short walk onto nearby hills just few hours before it. I did not take any pills against sickness… This has proven to be OK, since I didn't have any problems… Before and between the trip (and after), my aura has been photographed with Kirlian camera … |
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Summary of visions and approximate time frame I took Ibogaine at about 22:00 PM, and I started to feel it almost immediately - I began to laugh… I have been quite OK, but a little bit excited about everything… Then the friends begin to measure aura… After about 20 minutes, I felt OK… more and more funny thoughts were in my head… So I continued to watch my room… After 40 minutes, friends came to measure me again, and then I told them that I feel something is going on… The trip has begun, then I started to laugh and laugh again, and I remembered all the pictures were from my childhood, most of them as funny cartoons, which I used to watch at that time of my life… After some time, I started to see black widows (spiders) coming towards me, as if they will kill me… I knew that they will kill me and I let them do so and one of them bite me and I was like dying… Next thing I remember is that I have been watching in my room and thinking: Is this all, oh I have seen nothing, and I will die… What a lousy trip I took… after minute or two, I said, Ok, what it is it is… And the dream begun… I remember I saw spirit of Ibogaine as a blue symbol, and He was extremely jumpy and so fast I could hardly follow him… He also told me that He is my friend and I have nothing to be afraid of… At this moment (after 60 minutes), friends come into my room to measure
aura, and I felt that the spirit of Iboga was not very happy about that…
But I was too tired and too afraid to say no to my friends, but I did
not want to oppose Him, so I let spirit tell them that they should not
photograph me at this time and he also demanded them to move from my room
(that was very angry, screaming and rather deep voice; we removed from
the room, me especially, beacuse MP3CE has told me before that i somewhat
disturb him, when i and how i speak, others whom he has trusted more stayed
in the room and moved the equipment away from the bed (camera and notebook)
and unfortunally we forgot to shut down the laptop and ofcourse it was
making noise, that disturbed him verry much, so a little bit later we
had to remove it (and camera) from the room - by gape) Next thing I remember is that pictures begun to move very very fast… They were like tiny fragments of half words (not a word, neither a syllable)… and it was like you would hear through understanding of 2-year-old child… They were combined in pair of two by two symbols … Each of this symbol represented a specific point in my life, and I realized that I liked math very much from my inner soul - I actually studied physics and I work as a computer programmer at this point of my life. He has also showed me some points of my childhood which were painful at that time - I saw my father not being satisfied with me for not getting an excellent marks in school - and how this later influenced on my life… Then I remember that these pictures combined into something very boring - it was like some pictures from my school… I mean, each time any combination would repeat more than 4 times, it would become so boring that I just had to drop it away from my life - and if I wouldn't drop it, it would eventually come again in much bigger circle, which would be from my point of view a complete loss of time… I also remember spirit of Iboga cleaning up things in my life: It was like when it was something to drop, he told me "Drop it" or, if some dirt was in my body, He would say "get out, get out, get out, shuh" and dirt left my mind immediately. But if there was a picture that I liked, He would repeat it so many times I become bored with it, and then, he would drop it… I do remember that I have problems with accepting this boredom and timidity, and at some point it occurred that I accepted it… Immediately after I accepted it, God become to create a new series of dreams around that image, and there were all options included from that picture… I have also find out that my conception was a result of a boring sex, I was a child who was not meant to be… Then, at some point, I realized that my life is in fact only one of these pictures and that a personality is such a small part of the Spirit… Then I remember that I heard a question: "Do you really want to die?" I could not decide, at first, so the Spirit decided for me to come back into my body… However, I realized that man could go on the other side no matter how small amount of Ibogaine he took… I also remember some other pictures… For example, I realized that our dreaming bodies are made of many dreams (our daily life is just one small dream), and then, I remember that I met two of my friends, who are really good in conscious dreaming, and they were aware of that same dream - we confirmed this two days afterwards in our conversation. In the meantime, friends come to measure aura again (i called them myself) (4:00AM - by gape)… At first, it was impossible to measure it, because the machine was so aggressive I could actually feel that it has been "eating" my fingers… My friends of course did not believe me. I also remember the feeling that my brain is actually completely filled with light, and also, I remember that when I moved my body, I actually felt my brains floating in brain liquid and crashing into my scull… I can also recall some nasty feelings of lying about two feet over my body and looking down at it… I realized my body can take care of himself, and also, that it is more like a container. I remember to see my body twice… Once, it has been awake, and other time, it has been asleep… The first period of intense visions ended in a way that I talked to the Spirit of Iboga and he showed me I cannot describe or even understand - but it was very cool… Then I remember that He showed me a vision of a friend and showed to me that my friend is Spirit of Iboga in human body… Then, I moved back in the visions again… I saw the giant thread of consciousness, where I recognized and heard an advice from Carlos Castaneda's book: "The whole secret of sorcery is in moving the assemblage point", and, as I followed this thread, I saw different aspects of my life, together with advice from Castaneda's books (all of them)… I was able to recognize some patterns of my life, and these patterns described the specific point of my life… I also saw a program, which I am working on as a great piece of square net… Later, I realized my life was so extremely masculine (to much power, mathematics, computers, science, etc.) I had to recreate my life to allow woman to come into my life… I also get some advice to my other friend, and I heard each advice twice on two levels of consciousness - higher first, and then repeated on little lower, but still very high level… And then I was able to speak them and most important, to remember them… This happened in first 12 hours or so… The time sequence of visions is not exact, because it was simply too much of them… I also remember the feeling that my body was being rebuilt, as if Iboga was making my aura again from tiny fibers of energy. I remember I could not wake up before this process was completed in all levels.
Coming down to 1st attention In the following hours, I was recollecting the events and rest… You can see some thoughts and insights here ... I still felt effects for the next 4 days, for example, I was unable to work with computer since monitor was too disturbing… And in fact, the process is still going on, in my day-to-day life...
Post scriptum I experienced Initiation as really exhausting (like climbing on a really high mountain), even if it was not so difficult - according to other sources, my trip was very easy, and I felt no nausea, neither any physical discomfort, I would recommend it, but, of course, with great respect of what Iboga is... And it is of no use, if it is not used in day to day life - and this is true for all plants of power...
Recommedations to make things go easy I would recommend that you connect with angels prior to the trip... I also connected myself with Sathya Sai Baba (I put his picture near my bed and asked him to protect me on my jurney)... And prepare yourself as much as you can by finding your objectives - what you want to change in your life, see or experience... Body preparation is extremely helpful. Eating, smoking and even drinking of coffe is not recomended on the day of your Initiation. I would also recommend some short hikes into the nature. Prepare place for your initiation. I found electronics, such as computers, Kirlian camera, GSM phones, etc... extremely disturbing, as well as artificial light too... Natural light is far less disturbing... It is the best that you are in quiet space, and, if possible, make your place very subtle... All people you are talking with on the initiation should be quiet, since noise is very very disturbing... And note: This trip is the safest trip you can have... You can die, but you can't loose your freedom... It is the best thing ever happened in my life...
Recommended reading: Carlos Castaneda, All Books Taisha Abelar: The sorcerers crossing Florinda Donner: Being in Dreaming Lidija Asta - Lidija (in Slovene language only) Lidija and Alan Asta: Angeli (in Slovene language only) Amon Knut ml.: Iboga Ustanova iboga: Navodila za varno uporabo ibogaina
Thanx Special thanx to all involved and my spiritual teacher from the angelic world... Thanx to Carlos and his group for very precise instructions... Also thanks to Sai Baba, Babaji and all masters of Wisdom, and last, but not least, to mr. Iboga in human body himself... May god bless you forever and let spirit shine trough you !!! |